what now?

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it has been a whole day since i woke up. and nny refuses to let me leave. he wont talk or look at me. hes just been sitting in the corner with his back turned towards me. i have no idea whats wrong but im kinda worried about him. i have been fighting with myself about checking on him or asking him whats wrong. i decide to ask him whats wrong and as i started to get closer to him i could barley hear him mumbling stuff to himself. i observed his body language as i came closer.  as i stand right behind him i crouch down and put my hand on his shoulder. "nny, whats wrong. are you okay?" he stops mumbling to himself and slowly turns to me. his cheeks were wet with tears and his eyes were red. he just sits there, and stares at me. "am i crazy?" is all he said. i sat there puzzled at what had just came out of his mouth. he stares at me waiting for my answer as i think of what to say. " no nny.....your just troubled......" he sighed and fully turned his body towards me. "do you think people dont like me because im not.......normal." i shook my head "no nny. they just dont know what to say or how to act." he looks away and tugs me into a hug. it was awkward at first, but i hugged him back and patted his back. "i like you better alive. your not cold to the touch and you show actual emotion towards me." he said in a hushed voice, i smiled and chuckled. " so, im still your friend?" silence........"well, your not my best friend. just my friend." i nodded and he broke the embrace and scratched the back of his head. he sighed and had a pained look on his face "look.....its only a matter of time before i try to kill you....you should probably leave.....and never come back. i dont want to hurt you."  i let all the air in my lungs escape and shook my head, obviously saddened by what he said. "but what if i dont want to leave you. what if i can help you" he sighed and looked at me. he stared into my eyes and finally gave in. "fine......but dont say i didnt warn you.....by the way. why did you you just drop dead?"  i tensed at his question. what do i tell him....do i tell him the truth... or lie.... "it was a attempted suicide." i said in a low voice. nny cocked his brow in confusion. " iv'e tried many many times. but have never been successful....until yesterday. but they said it wasnt my time yet......im really depressed and.....i dont want to get into it." i said as i looked away. he sat there and a small  smile crept onto his face "...maybe were not so different. maybe....you can help me...and....i can help you" he said in a gentle voice. i smiled and shook my head "yeah.....". after a few moments of silence he jumped up and yelled " HEY. lets go to the comic store! and then we can get brain freezies!!" my eye twitches as my adhd decides to kick in. i spring up and hop up and down while chanting "COOL COOL COOL LETS GO!!" he smiles and zips to the other room and emerges with a backpack and he is now wearing a black long trench coat. " i uh...dont have any thing that can fit you but i did find this sweater that i never wore or never will wear" he said and handed me a black hoodie. it had black and white stripped strings for the hood and had the 'Z?' logo on it. since i was skinnier than him it was baggy on me. but thats how i liked it. i thanked him and we walked out of his house and headed into town.  

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here u go guys, enjoy. 

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